Can we just talk about how amazing the music from The Last Five Years is?
Seriously, I've been listening to it nonstop for 20 hours. Andrew recommended it to me back in February, but it's only just now on Netflix. I've actually watched it twice.
Last week I was all about Spring Awakening. I allocated time to journal how I felt about all the numbers and the show overall, because I wanted to remember my first impressions of it.
Even though I'd never seen this film adaptation or heard the music from the last five years, I didn't feel like I needed to record my impressions because the story is so familiar. It feels like I'm watching my story. The most special moment was when I was listening to the soundtrack after taking my wisdom teeth medicine and I heard the music to "I'm Still Hurting" in the bridge of "Things are Moving too Fast." Essentially, like I read in my journal yesterday, the characters in this movie anticipated there being problems later on in their romance. The same thing happens when Cathy takes Jamie to meet her parents during "I Can Do Better Than That" and she uses lyrics from "I'm Still Smiling" stating she wanted miles and piles of him but later she is exhausted by the miles and piles of him. I'm sure there are many other moments of brilliance in this soundtrack but those resonated with me.
I came across this movie because since I moved into Resco I decided I needed to date myself.
Lucy and I had all of these fun summer plans for going and hanging out in broadripple and having adventures while we lived together. Just because she moved back home doesn't mean I have to give up on those things! I'm running every day in a different area of campus or the city and listing to so many different bands and artists. I'm trying a lot of new restaurants and taking pictures of everything! The world is so beautiful and those snapshots reminds me that there's beauty in everything and being alone allows me to pace myself, take my time, and not rush to catch up with anyone. I feel safe and confident taking my strolls with my big floppy hat and sunglasses down the canal. Among these date yourself activities are things like going to museums and gardens and coffee shops, dressing up and doing your makeup just to celebrate yourself and not to impress anyone else. I'm going to concerts in the area and discovering so many fun things to do when you're young and thriving in an urban area. Next summer will be even better!
Last night I was going to see a movie with Jenna and Spencer. That plan fell through because Spencer weren't able to make it into town like she said. She's not coming till Sunday now, even though Jenna is here. I was really hurt and disappointed. That's sort of a pattern with me. I'm really happy and confident being on my own when I know I'm going to be and when I want to be. But with my friends and people I assume care about me, cancelled plans hurt. I tried to make the best of it though, and ultimately I found The Last Five Years since it worked out. That's the beauty of being in a healthy state of mind. For the first time in such a long time I see the bright side. I don't feel like I'm dragging an albatross from my neck. I'm just free and single and happy! I feel like sunshine.
I feel like the brightest most brilliant yellow you've ever seen riding in the back of a red convertible down a cliffside highway out west with a scarf trailing from my head of shimmering stars. Yes, I did just hit a power-up on mario kart and describe dmyself as that feeling. I'm just happy and this musical was something that was important to me so I wanted to share!
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