"Happy Anniversary" She said quietly to herself. She thought about sitting in hot box pizza facing the window, talking about love and loss. The vulnerability between two souls, shared that night, transcended the words spoken and caressed smooth skin. She told him she wouldn't take his virginity that night but he wanted her to, he was ready to, he wanted to. And so they did. They were crazy and impulsive and irresponsible. They were not safe they were not cautious, they just recognized their attraction for one another in body and mind. There was no shame only excitement and intimacy. After reveling in frivolity she asked him, before they did "that" again, what they were. "We're definitely dating" he told her. Those words will forever be in her heart because that was the beginning of a love story. One that was short, but no less filled with love than a Jane Austin Epic.
This is the end of February, the month of firsts and anniversaries. I will not have to think about the first date, or the first kiss, the first fuck, the first familial introductions for another year. The hardest part is over. Soon April will come and I'll remember falling in love with him, but for now, the hardest is truly over. I didn't even think about today being the 18th, or the 18th being an anniversary until a moment ago. I was doing statistics homework and dating it while Effie was watching Netflix on my floor when it all clicked into place. I'm surprised I didn't think about it sooner. But I think that means I'm moving on and I'm really happy. I am happy.
I'm going to get back to my statistics now. But, Dear Ex-boyfriend, happy anniversary. I will always love these memories. I will always treasure them. You are so dear to me. You and our memories will always make the light in my eyes burn a little brighter. Today is a special day for more than the night we officially began dating, and more special than the first night we slept together. Today is special because I embrace having moved on from that life. I know I've been saying that for ages, but every day that I look back with love and happiness is a good day. Every day must be filled with love instead of regret. Life is beautiful and should never be wished away or forgotten. Our story was epic, but the epilogue is finally over and I'm ready to start something new. Happy Anniversary again, I love you.
*theme attributions to Veronica Mars (A show you'd freaking love by the way, it is the best of Kim Possible meets Gossip Girl) and Sex in the City (A show I've never watched but love to quote)
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