Progress Report 1-1-18

"So this is the New Year, and I have no resolutions for self assigned penance or problems with easy solutions." I have found that on my own. I am healing and I suppose the only thing I want to carry with me into the new year is to continue to be in touch with myself.

I didn't have to do any of my disciplines today to feel okay. I just did. I'm happy.
I made over $100 today serving! I "popped my cherry" they told me. I laughed.  I have now paid off my Walk the Moon ticket in one day. That's crazy!

I love my full lips 

the curve of my chest

 the shape of my eyebrows

and the wave of my hair 

in this picture

I had a customer flirt with me. It was nice. Usually that makes me really uncomfortable, but he was goofy and sweet. His name was Matt, and he was dining with a gentleman who had some sort of ASC (autism spectrum condition). They were really nice and tipped me quite generously. There are so many good people in the world. I have hope and faith and I do feel differently this year. Things are changing for the better for me. I feel more confident and not just as a facade, but I have internal confidence that is beginning to shine through to others and I'm excited for the future!


Day 13 in my book focuses on creativity. I wrote some poetry this morning. I started a poetry anthology, sort of like a concept album, to help me heal last Christmas, so these poems are about those emotions, not the ones I'm feeling right now. To use hurt and harness it as a creative force is amazing.

Self Love: Take a Selfie, just as you are, and find one thing to love about it.

Know Yourself Better: Proudest accomplishment

My academic scholarship and research fellowship at Butler

Self Aware: How do I handle being misperceived or misunderstood

Not well. I become belligerent. I cannot stand being misrepresented. I must always ensure my intents are not misconstrued. I want people to understand where I come from and that I am a good and caring person. Though the reaction I have typically does not help that goal.

Know Thyself: What qualities do you admire in others?

Temperance and Self Control. Flexibility.

Gratitude: Write about a writing tool

Outlines are my favorite writing tool. Structure is my best friend, however I used to abhor outlines my freshman year. PBL stands for problem based learning. It structures your research such that you have questions that you'd like to answer in your expository writing. I use this constantly now. I always ask questions and then find evidence to create a wholistic representation of the answer. My freshman English teacher was not especially good at her job, in fact she once held me after class to explain the questions I asked made her job more difficult. I was resentful and begrudging and did not truly embrace outline format until college, now however, I would never write a paper without it!

Happy New Year. Here's to healing and creativity!